Sit down, I'm about to reveal something monumental.
I'm the worst blogger ever.
Contain your shock.
I know I haven't posted in several months. I'm going to get better. I will learn how to fit blogging into my "when do I breath again?" schedule.
Over the past few weeks I have added a few new things to this schedule. One being spending a few mornings a week at a lifelong leaning center for adults with disabilities. There are 68 students, ages 15-60, with disabilities including cerebral palsy, Downs Syndrome, Autism, to Aspergers just to name a few. What a new experience. If your looking for something that will push you over the cliff of your comfort zone this is it. On day one as I walked in the front doors of the center I was immediately surrounded by students welcoming me and showing me around.
Within the first few hours I had made 68 new friends.
I have grown to love and adore each and every student. I have been loved and accepted for who I am. No questions asked.
This experience got me thinking, why can't I love others like that? Immediate acceptance, no questions asked. Instead I make assumptions, I judge and I question others. I will be totally honest and blunt with you, at times I assume that someone in a bad situation did something bad to get themselves there. At times I feel like I'm better than others. Im selfish when it comes to my time and especially my money. There are days where I feel sorry for myself and there are days where people just straight up piss me off. I could go on and on and on.
How ugly am I?
A few months ago someone told me "how you love others is how you love God". Well crap, Im most certainly not loving God very well lately. I have done some ugly things in my life. Some really unloving things. But man oh man has God been graciously showing me what I should be doing. I want to be like the students I work with. I want to accept someone not for what they do or how they look or even what they act like. I want to love someone simply because my God loves them. No strings attached.
I want to weep when I see others hurting, not wonder what they did to get themselves in that situation. I want to give of my time and money like it's never ending, not hoard it like i'll never have more. I want to pray for people I have never met, not yell at them for cutting me off as they scream to someone on their phone. I want to love others so truly and so deeply that they wonder what's wrong with me, not be just like every other person.
I want to love my God not just in my home or in my church but everywhere I will ever go and through everyone I will ever meet. I know I can't be perfect, nobody can be, but I know for a fact that I could do way better than I'm doing now.
Hold me to this. Seriously.
And I challenge you to do the same.
If you have made it this far then Thanks for reading.